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I'm Shen Shen.
Or Roseanne Dizon. -.-
And basically, this is where I pour out my life story, my ideas, my opinions, my experiences and pretty much everything to do with "me" just because idk really.
So yeah... enjoy?
Ask me anything.
Well, I can’t really blame anyone, can I? They never said It would be easy; they just didn’t mention that It would be one of the hardest things you would ever do.
It. With a capital I. Because “It” isn’t just some other thing like toilet paper or pillows. “It” happens to drive the world in motion or even, a lack of “It” drives the world insane.
It is love and love is It.
It. Capital I. “There’s no I in TEAM” but hell yeah there’s an I in It, an I in love (though not literally but still, it’s there). You’d think it’s all about the other person, wouldn’t you? That it usually revolves around them. Well, it kinda does. Until you realize that during difficult times, at the end of the day, it’s all down to you. Stay or go. Stick through it or just leave.
But let’s not skip ahead. Go back a bit.
Love. It’s a beautiful verb, isn’t it? The verb of making someone happy with your good morning messages, hugs, kisses, compliments, late night deep conversations, etcetera etcetera etcetera…
But I don’t know. I’ve come to realize that the verb to love is really a lot more than just those actions. A lot more than just pleasing someone with your little sentiments.
Note: “COME” to realize. It didn’t just occur to me at the start. Yes, any relationship which involves It would tell you the true meaning of the verb love and if you don’t know what I mean? Well, wait until you’re a good bit into the relationship and come back to me.
It’s so funny and weird. Whenever I heard of love, the following usually pops into my mind:
- Butterflies in one’s stomach
- Magic in the air
- Bouquet of flowers
- Surprise dates
You get the point.
So naive. So stupid, even. You’d think that the above is what makes love beautiful, don’t you? But it’s really when you scratch way beneath the surface that the true beauty of love really reveals itself.
It’s when you can’t stand them and want to punch their face so much but, at the same time, you can’t imagine anyone else you’d rather spend the rest of your life with.
It’s when you’re willing to forgive despite common sense fighting against you.
It is the action of forgiving despite everything.
Wow, where is this blog post heading to.
I don’t know, guys.
I’m Drunk on Ed Sheeran right now. Get it? Sheerios will get it.
And now I’m off topic. Great.
I’ll just end this by throwing in a few words that maybe would make this post make sense if I ever decide to read back to this post in the future…
A part of loving is forgiving, isn’t it?
And here comes the part where I said there’s an I in love. Because it’s down to you in the end. Whether you lower your pride and let your love win. Or you lower your love and let your pride win.
But then if you really do love someone…
Ok. Enough blogging for tonight, Shen. Go home, Shen. You’re Drunk.
Remember the days I used to always do these diary entry things? I don’t remember either! Long, long time ago it was. This is probably gonna be the last one again for another good while because of my most hated words: SUMMER IS FINISHED AND SCHOOL IS BACK ON MONDAY.
So, for me, I considered today as my last day of summer because it sorta is. Sunday just feels too close to Monday to think that it’s the last day of summer.
I’ve to say though, the only part I probably didn’t like about today was this morning…
I woke up at 10 AM and, early as that is for me, it was too late to talk to Jay. Just when we said our hellos, it was already time for him to go and that was that - our last conversation until he comes back in September. :( With the time difference which means I have to either wake up really early or sleep really late to catch him online, and school being back next week, we won’t be able to talk anymore. Sucks, right? Oh wells, it’s all good. As I’ve said before, I really should just be grateful that we even get to talk in the first place while he’s there because we both initially thought that we’d have to go a whole month with no talking because he thought he wouldn’t have internet connection there… so thank God for that! But guess what guys…
10 MORE DAYS TO GO!
I needed to wake up early aswell today because of the Submerge Crew rehearsals. Oh boy, I’ve never sweated so much in my life - I was practically drowning in my own sweat. It really drained every ounce of energy I had. But oh man, was it good. Really good. I miss dancing and I wish I could keep it around and commit to it but with so many other things going on and me being in 5th year which is meant to be a year of hard work, I don’t think I’ll be able to commit to attending training every Saturday. And not just that, I actually already have plans made for the next three Saturdays…
But enjoy this stolen shot of us… you better appreciate this since I digged deep down my newfeed on Facebook, through all those millions and millions of ask.fms, to find this haha! Saw it earlier but forgot who uploaded it so had to find it the hard way… anyways yeah. Spot me?
So after those 4 hours of sweat, I tagged along with Jad’s family at the Tall Boats event. I was their adopted daughter/sister for the day! I love them though… free food and tito and tita paid for me to get on every ride with the Jad and Daj! We got on the bumper cars twice just cause and that crazy ride that goes everywhere and you feel like you left your soul up there when you go up and then suddenly go down… lol, how bad am I at descriptions? But yeah, that. Good fun with my two brothers since childhood. :)
They don’t look too happy to be with me in that picture but I’m sure they were, haha!
Got home at around 8 and surprise surprise… ate Mara was there! Kuya and her were watching some movie… how bankrupt 20-something-year-olds celebrate their 14th monthsary, haha! Missed her so much though and it was really really really nice to see her finally! I went with Kuya as Kuya dropped her home and we stayed there for a bit… I really missed her family too though! Bonding time with Nikai and Neil after what seemed like years! Oh… and laughing at how Kuya thought Neil Armstrong was a famous biker. Yes, I said it… biker!
Got home and played MW3 splitscreen online with my kuyas with whoever between the two playing with the lowest score at the end of the game, having to hand the controller over to the person who didn’t play that time around. And now I’m just waiting for my turn lol. I’m wrecked though… which is, funny enough, very good! I need to sleep early and being wrecked means me sleeping early! And by early, I’m talking about like 1 or 2, not 4/5/6 as usual.
I need to pee and then my turn to play… bye!
IMPORTANT PS Thank you so so so much for this day, God! :) And for my entire summer too! And for everything, really! Thank you for everything, God! :)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, I’m sorry I’m just laughing at how bad I am with this. Anyone who really knows me knows how I’m really bad at “internet things”. Like replying to Facebook messages or Twitter replies or being consistent with posting on Tumblr. Idk, I was just born to suck at these things. I do go on them though quite often but I mostly just watch everything happen and not really do anything, you know? Jay, I’m sure you know what I’m talking about anyway… but yeah, the point is: I’m sorry with the inconsistency of these posts (DEEP WORD, AY? YEAH, WE’RE GOING BACK TO SCHOOL SOON ENOUGH SO I THOUGH I’D DROP IN A FEW NOSEBLEED WORDS FOR YA HAHA IDK).
But anyways, it’s all good cause for the past few days, we got to talk a lot… HURRAY FOR YOUR INTERNET CONNECTION SMARTBRO OR GLOBE BROADBAND USB THINGAMABOB! Except for today, yeah. Last time we talked was yesterday morning… you made me sleep at like 6 in the morning making me late for cotillion practice but yknow that’s life lol. Ugh, Jay, I don’t know where I’m going with this post anymore. -.-
Just come back will ya -.-
12 more days though!!! Getting real close! Cannot wait to see your super super super dark face and your hairless upper lip AND you better have gotten fat!
LOL, see I told you… I really don’t know where I’m going with this post anymore.